It's been two days we stopped talking.
This is really killing me inside.
I feel horrible and pathetic.
I'm sorry.
I never regret being together with you.
It's one of the best thing I've done, if you ask me.
I always know that my parents are really strict and
their mindset's super traditional and they'll never say
yes to a mixed race relationship.
Yet I still ..
agreed to this.
I thought I can or maybe I could change their mindset
about this because, come on,
It's 2017.
Mixed-race relationship's no longer an exotic
rarity but the new normal.
I was wrong.
Really wrong.
I could never change their thinking.
When they found out about us,
They were beyond mad.
Especially my father.
He did nothing but yell at me.
And even swore to God that if any of us were caught having
a mixed race relationship,
he'll kick us out of the house.
I didn't really think much about it and act like this
did not happen at all and still continue our relationship.
I was fucking stupid.
I should've know when to stop back then.
It's alright.
There's no such things as 'if'.
Things were fine, until that very one day when my mother
ran through my phone, somewhere around September.
Again.
She was fucking mad.
I tried telling her that we're really serious about it
and i hope we can really be together.
She just called me a childish, immature kid.
I do not know what to say.
we (mother and i) stopped talking for a few days.
I really can't take this anymore and i told her we're no longer
a thing.
Two days ago
I guess I made myself quite clear to him.
And
Now I'm writing this.
I do not know you'll even read this or not because
after what i've done to you ,
is really hurtful.
And I don't think we can ever be friends anymore.
I just want to say
Thank you.
for once loving me,
for accepting all my flaws,
saved me from my chaos.
Take care.
I'm sorry for giving you such painful memories,
instead of the happy ones.
I sincerely wish you all the best in life and
get a girl who deserves you.
-K-
